Anger Emotion Devil

This anger can't be hold no more. This emotion can't be control no more. All of this should be let out or I will blow up and killing some body. I will be feel so bad and hurting my self. I will be grumpy and treat people bad. I will be shout any around me. How I can control this anger, how I can control this emotion if nobody understand me. I should be angry and hurting people. But no place for me to spill out all of this. Doing shout in quite place even not helped to make me calm down. Praying even don't have it's power to make me calm down. Where is the devil when I need them to help me spill out all of this? Where is angel to help me calm down my self? Where is God to lead me being a good girl? They all not here, and I leaving alone by them. No one willing to take me or help me. I kind of unrecognized creature. What am I if no God or Angel, even Devil willing to have me as their follower..???

I Know You...

Asking me for what I know about you is the funniest question I ever heard. Do you want to know what I know about you..?? This is what I know about you:

• I know you are the man which have a big heart, and you loving me with the heart.

• I know you have a very long patient, and you waiting me with that patient. 

• I know you have a strong mind, and you helping me with your mind. 

• I know you have softest feel, and you comforting me with the feel. 

• I know you have the most beautiful eyes, and you see me with that eyes.
• I know you have a strong hand, and you hug me with that hand.
• I know you have a wide care for me.
• I know you have a bunch of attention and passion for me.
• I know you want me to be at your side and want me to be always with you till death do us apart.
• I know you want me to be your wife.
• I know you want me as much as I want you.

Don't you know I know about you...??? Don't you know I understand you..??? But did you know about me or understand me..???

Because Of You

Because I'm lonely in my heart I hate to have you.

Because I never feel safe in my heart  I hate to have you.

Because I never feel comfort  I hate to have you.

Because you never understood me I hate to have you.

Because you never appreciate me I hate to have you.

Because you never look at me I hate to have you.

Because you I hate to my self.

Because you I hate to live.

Because of you.

Tears Of Darkness

Long time never wrote again for my blog. :P Just to busy with family matter. With my parents matter, and all other stuff insignificant. And all of that stuff consuming most of my time. Hm.. many things happened and many things makes me drain my tears. My stress level getting up, and my psycho level getting up fast. And everyday I crying and crying. Maybe I still smiling, I still laughing, I still singing and I still socialize. But deep inside my heart, I always cry and cry. And when I can't hold of it anymore I go to somewhere alone and crying hard. Releasing a bit feeling fulfill my heart. This tears wont gonna be stop till the time all the matters stop and clears. Now is the time where darkness surrounding, trapping, and cooping me inside. The darkness wont allow any light come to me. The darkness will makes me become a weak girls, meaner girls, and wicked girls. This darkness, it's so thick and impenetrable. This darkness, holding me so tight. Gave me so many doubt and consideration. Guess is the time to play and dancing with the rain. But where is the rain when I need it...??