I am in the middle of uncomfortable feeling. Feel not comfort with my man, my parents, my family, my religion, my neighborhood, and my environment. Not comfort being my self and feel not understand every single thing in my life. Now i'm lost in uncomfortable zone, lost in the moment of awkward and lost in sea of misery. This is the moment I wanna scream out loud, hurting my self, crying hardly, and killing my self. This is the point where all single things the others do makes me suck and sick. Makes me pukes and dizzy. Makes me hurt and sad. And there's seems like no body can understand me or at last having some empathy for what I've been trough. It's getting hard and dark. No more light even the dimmest one. All around is something trapping and surrounding which only give you bad feeling. Give you negative thinking, give you temp and high emotion, anger and wrath. This moment breaking my heart, as you took it from the place throw it away, and let the wound keep open with no healing. Like you give it a vinegar and salt, and then let it bleed till die. This is just the another dark side and misery of life path I would've been trough.
