"If you ever leave me, baby, leave some morphine at my door..." The song played in my playlist, and somehow all the words in song, sung by Bruno Mars, stabbed my hearts. I feel all the words in the song, and makes my eyes started tearing. Some how all the words on the song is represent my heart now time. Ugh, it's hurts and hard. But however I should face a life, with or without my love. And then following by Already Gone, Kelly Clarkson. Once again this song stabbed me deeper. And makes my heart getting more hurts. The love I have, somehow betray me and injured me. And all I have to do now is forget my love and started close my heart more tight. I should not let anybody come again to my heart or it would betray me again and again. Ouch, the way of my heart makes me suffer, is the way of hell and devil seducing my -started- calm life. Makes me remind of the lyrics of Christina Perry song, Jar of Heart, "I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed". Because the first time I had kissed from my love, is the first time my heart starting betray me and injured me. And I should be always following my instinct, somehow it's always right. I knew since the first time I met him, my heart will be bleed and hurt. But still I ignoring my instinct, following my wildest insanity. And now, here I am, alone and drown in my sadness. I know with time this wound will be heal and I'll be okay, but still now I can't stop my tears, can't stop crying out loud. I ended my write with some Avril Lavigne song, Wish You Were Here, coz I always wishes that you were here in my side and hold me tight every second of my life.
